Single Life: Who's First? BF/GF? You? or GOD?

“Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own;  you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.” 1 Corinthians 6:19-20

Something, I experience….on being single and WHO AM I PUTTING FIRST
When you are involved with someone – well for me – it puts a lot of pressure on me to do things for that person. I am tempted to do things to keep my mate satisfied with me. That’s just my nature. I realized from the last person I was seeing a few months ago. That I had my priorities all wrong!

In me - trying to make sure, I kept him (or myself) happy. I did things with him, that I know I shouldn’t have done being that we – were not married! & I was doing sooooo good on my “abstinence walk” & BAM just like that, I slipped. I had been pretty faithful in my walk of not having any intercourse. When I made the oath, to not engage into any type of sexual activity. I really was and then, when things got too hard for me in my life. Like a person with an addiction. I cracked and fell in the trap. I knew it would make me feel better….so I slipped up, not once but twice.

The first time, it was really b/c of my own selfish desire. When, I went over to his house…I already knew what I had planned to happen in my mind. ‘Isn’t that like the enemy – he already knows what and how he’s going to use us for his good!’ My excuse: I was going through a lot and I needed and wanted to feel better and you know…after you have sex. You feel great! I used sex as my medicine to make me feel better & in my past, that’s exactly what I used. Sadly, it was my God.  

What’s even worse the feeling, you receive after having intercourse is not long-lasting!  It’s only temporary before you want to do at it again! Then the next time, I did it so willingly - we had a disagreement about something and you know make up time. Yeah, you know…you do what couples do to make things better.  SMH ‘not good’ – then after that it was over. The relationship or whatever you want to call it, everything was over…just like that! 

That caused me to really evaluate myself and my motives and who was I putting first. I realized that this person, was placed in my life to SHOW me WHO I WAS PUTTING FIRST! Surely, not GOD! I was not honoring God with my body and putting Him first at all.
I was putting my selfish desires first above Him! I did make sure to not be a hypocrite though - during this time though. I could not even dare “encourage” anyone….nope! I was silent until I got my spirit right. I felt ashamed, I was like how on Earth – am I telling people what they shouldn’t do and that they should be obeying and look at me. It didn’t matter to me that they didn’t know, I knew. Conviction is REAL!

"Those who have been born into God's family do not make a practice of sinning, because God's life is in them. So they can't keep on sinning, because they are children of God." 1 John 3:9 NLT

Whew! If you really have given your life to Christ and want to please Him and Him alone! You will not continue living in sin. You just can’t do it…b/c it will eat you up inside…to live a lie. Saying you’re doing something and you’re not. 

It can be challenging to STOP certain things BUT nothing is too hard for GOD!  

“For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37 

You, have to REALLY leave it on the altar taking it to Him in prayer and give it to Him [Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 1 Peter 5:7 NLT]…and He will help you remove whatever it is. He will help you to stop doing whatever it is – that you are doing, that you shouldn’t. 

When I was younger, I use to be shy with telling GOD about things b/c I’m like I’m too embarrassed to tell Him this about me. As an adult, I realize how silly that is b/c GOD KNOWS AND SEES ALL THINGS! You can’t hide anything from Him! He KNOWS all about YOU! He created YOU!

“Nothing in all creation is hidden from God. Everything is naked and exposed before his eyes, and he is the one to whom we are accountable.” Hebrews 4:13 NLT

So, for me it’s GREAT to be single right now….b/c I have NO temptations! None! :-)

I mean, I know it won’t stay that way b/c I do desire to get married someday…BUT I am preparing myself to be ready equipped – so I won’t slip anymore! 
I told one of my male friends – who I can talk to spiritually – who gets me and my thought process. I told him, I am not going about dating like I did before. I am going to be a lot more cautious. No kissing! No late night nothings! No too much alone time. No anything – that will put me in a situation where I may slip up! I can’t do it b/c my FLESH is weak in that area and I KNOW IT! 
& I can’t afford to make any more slip ups! God’s watching!

So, the next time you go to do something – you know you shouldn’t – REMEMBER God’s watching ya!

~ Love, Peace & Christ